Wow I can't believe that the weekend went by that fast! Easter went really good my family and I did breakfast for our church and then we went home and make dinner and visited with my G-pa and G-ma Tooley and Unkle Mike!  It was realy nice having them down.

 

Dad has been home for the past week it was good havin him home!  He leaves tuesday to go back to W.V. and Lacey also leaves tuesday to go out to Cali!  Boy I'm gonna be lost without her.  I'm not gonna know what to do with myself! I was really wantin to blog more but I ran out of time!  Shouldn't have spent so much time in photobucket!! hehehe

 

Me and Lacey with G-ma Tooley and Unkle Mike

 

 

Today was just a wonderful day!  Yeah the weather was great and everything went smooth.  But it was one of those days when you truely appericate a friend! And I must say THANK YOU! This friend of mine has been great these past couple of days leavin me "cry on his shoulders" for hours and hours listenin to me bitch about everything. Going threw tons of different moods and still wants to talk to me  is still wonderin how I'm doing everyday!  And sends the best messages just at the perfect time.  Almost like he was in my mind and knew how I was thinking!  It just feels great when you get that feelin that you have a true friend and loves you for you and cares about you!  I may have not known this friend for a long time but right away there was a click!  I just hope one day I'll be able to return the love back to him and let him know how deeply I care for him!

 

 

 

I think I've been going threw something really deep here lately.  And suprise suprise it has to deal with a guy.  What is the sayin if you love someone sometimes you have to leave them go and if they come back to you then it was ment to be?!?!?  But what do you do if you have left them go and they come back and you let them go again and they come back again over and over.   But  every time they come back it everything is the same?? Nothing changes.  And all it does it hurt you both more and more.  What are you to do then?   I've been so worked up the past couple of day here its unreal.  I have had some of the best days followed by the worst nights!   And it just seems like no matter what I do at the moment it seems so right but when I actually think about it its not right.  UUugghhh this love (whatever you wanna call it) stuff is overated!! Trust me I've tried hard and it hasn't got me anywhere.  Expect for here by myself alone yet once again.

 

 

Well it was St. Patty's Day I love St. Patty's Day to bad I'm not Irish!! hehehe I did get to hang out with my sis and a friend and enjoy the company of each other thou!  So what can  I realy ask for more??? 

 

 

Boy it has been a crazy past couple of days here for me!  I think I'm in need of a vacation! Something to get away from everything for a day or two.  Heck who know maybe even 3 or 4!! Hehehe

 

Dad finally made it home from West Virgnia he's been gone since Christmas and Casey made it back from Colorado today to!  Double bonus!!  I took Johnny and went to the St. Patty's parade today.  It was freezin outside but I'm happy I went it wouldn't be right if I didn't go.  Work has been crazy lately  it just seems that lately when I go to work its just drama drama drama well at least for the past 2 our of 3 days!! Work used to be my run a way to get away but dang I don't know anymore!  Well tomorrow is sunday hopefully it will be a nice calm day there!  Hey now I can atleast hope right?????   And I get to hang out with some friends after wards and visit we have plans made up already!  So that'll be nice :) I know I'll enjoy it heck I need if after the week I've had.  Well until next time I'm signin out!

 

 

 

Wow its been a crazy week here for me.  Full of ups and downs!  I don't even think I know what direction I'm heading half the time! lol  But I'm doing good I guess.  I'm just dealin with some inside issues now.  Ones I don't know how to talk about or how to go about them!  Just confused I guess you can say!

 

This week I did manage to pull out all the spring decorations and put them up.  I needed a lil pick me up to let me know that spring will be here soon!!  I tell ya what thou aaawwweeee the house is so nice and the weather has been getting better. Its still colder than cold at night but durin the day the sun comes out and  its pretty nice!  I caught the cat takin a lil cat nap in the sun it seems I'm not the only one thats ready for spring to get here!

 

Boy don't you hate it when you have so much to blog about but you just don't know how to put any of it into words?  Maybe it'll come to me in my sleep and i'll be able to vent it out tomorrow!

 

 

 

Well so far so good!!  I was right yesterday this week is gonna be just wonderful!!! I can't believe everything I got done......on a MONDAY!!!!! I even managed to pamper myself a lil I painted my naild and even had Lacey die my hair!!!  Back to brunette....I used to not like this color becuase it was my natural color and now i'm tryin to die it that color!! I tried the readish color around new years and that just didn't kick if for me.  But this here O' Yea I like it!!  I'll have to take a pic so everyone can see!!  AAAGGGHHHHH I just feel so papmpered today! If I could just work on that whole sleep issue I would be golden!! hehe

 

 

I would have to say that the start of the day today about got the best of me but today turned out to be one of the best days I've had in a while here! It started off by runnin late!  It just seems no matter what I do and how early i try to get a start of something I will never be on time!  One day I will master it.....one day.  Today was my familys turn to provide the breakfast for our church after service.  As I stood in the kitchen at the island looking at the clock  and seeing it read 8:30am (church starts at 9) and then looking back down at the island  and the fruit is still waiting to be cut up the muffins have to be put on the try  and so do the brownies.  In the back ground I hear the shower runnin (I was blessed with my ability to run late from my mom! lol) all I could think is we are going to be lucky if we make it there in time for after the service to set out the breakfast! With years of experience  me and Lacey know how to get stuff done quick....we've been doing it our whole life.  Everything look great and we were finally out the door....had 5 min to make it there but we were out the door! With the  fruit tray in one hand the muffins in the other and pullin my purse keys and phone along in tow I was out the door!  I got all the way out to the car and then realized how was i gonna open the door?!?! I did the first thing that came to my mind put the fruit tray on top of my car and went to open the door! Pretty logical....well it is winter and I am in michigan and we did get snow the other day which left a nice smooth finish to the top of my car....as soon I went to go grab the door handle down came the fruit tray sliddin right off the top of my car.  First reaction grab the tray so down in the snowbank went my purse the key and my phone!  I didn't save anything it all hit the ground!  Down I went to pick everything up not thinking about what the wet snow would do to my kahki pants! Rush back into the house to to savor the few pieces that didn't hit the ground and grab some new and back out the door.  We made it to church and was only 6-7 min late not to bad.  Expect for we get there and they have already started and we are in the basement tryin to get everything ready for after (coffee put on, puttin the milk and juice and food in the fridge) and if you know me and my family I don't think we can do anthing quite.  Mom knocks into the garbage can knockin the lid off we sound like a heard of elephants comin up the stairs at this moment in time I was about ready to turn around and go back home and  climb into bed and get out on the other side and see if that would help any at all! lol We got into our pew all in one piece and settled in.  And as soon as I sat down I swear I felt everything lift right off of me! The spilt fruit tray or the big wet spots on my knees from the snow nothing matter.  The service was wonderful!  I love my congergation.  Its a smaller church we attend today there was prolly only 20-25 people there. But its a grea church I feel so comfortable there and I don't know how our pastor does it but it seems like every sermon on sunday relates to how you feel that it goes along with what is going on in your life at the moment. After the service we went down and breakfast went off great we started to plan the Easter breakfast and the day just seemed to turn right around for me!

After church we had to stop for gas because naturally the gas light came on  on the way there! But we went back home and my good day just went on and on! The house got picked up along with my room!  Right down to wahing all of my bedding and puttin it back on! So I would have to say I'm ready for the new week to start and I'm gonna be startin it off on the right foot!  I just have the feeling that this is gonna be a good week!  Can't wait to see how it goes!

I hope everyone else has a wonderful week also! xoxo

 

 

 

 

 

 

If I would have to say I would say that this tuesday was more of a monday for me!!  But all in all it was a pretty good day!  Odd I know but its just funny on how some stuff can work out at times!  I tried fixin the computer 2 today and both times it just didn't work out for me.....maybe its tryin to tell me something! lol  O'Well I'm glad I can atleast laugh about it because the one time I send over 2 hours on it and then got booted from the net and lost EVERYTHING that I had worked on!!!  My sister had the day off so I got to spend part of the morning with her I think I got stuck on a show thou.  We normal like to watch out music vidoes in the morn but today for some odd reason we did some surfing and we both got drawn into the bad girls club  on OH!  I've watched the show before but it was just 5 or 10 min here and there.  But today they must have had a re-run mini marthon on and I tell ya what I think that got left on all day.....and for part of the night also. I have one more day of work (wed) and then its days off for me!  I'm looking forward to these days off.  I have so much stuff I'm wanting to get done around the house I just hope I can get it all done!  There is some deep cleanin that is callin my name! lol Sounds like a lot of fun on how to spend my days off I know I know. But I love a clean house expecialy when its freshly clean and you just get done aaaahhhhh to sit back and relax and enjoy it for that right there is pure peace and harmony for me!  There is nothing better.  Then I wake up the next morning and it BLAH! lol Ok so maybe not the mornin but I tell ya what it doesn't take long!

 

I'm glad to see that mother nature is takin a break on us here!  They were callin for 1-2 inches of snow today and we just got a dusting!!  Thank  you thank you thank you!  Its just that it seems like the last past couple of times when they call just for a lil snow we end up getting just dumped on!  But you know what is in the air.......SPRING!!!  I know I know its still february but I can feel it.  It'll be comin in soon....hopefully!

Boy O boy I don't know what it has been lately but I've been just so tired.  But when I go to lay in bed and sleep I can not fall asleep at all!! Its been odd I just have song after song going threw my head.  To tell ya the trueth it has been drivin me crazy!  All I wanna do is sleep. I've even tried takin some advil pm and stuff and nothing helps me.  If I do fall alsleep it is only maybe for and hour two hours tops!  Then I'm wide awake and it takes me over an hour to fall back asleep!  I tell ya I'm about to have someone just come and knock me over the head with a fryin pan just so I can get some sleep.  I can feel myself getting more and more cranky  because of the lack of sleep.  But theres nothing I can do about it.  If there is something I can do will somone please help me!!  I don't know if my back has anything to do with my sleep it has been botherin me latley I can't lay in bed for more than 4-5 hours and then i gotta get out because its killin me.  And lately for the lil while I have fallen asleep I've had some of the weirdest/crazy/scary/just plain off the wall dreams!!  Some  good some bad.  Its odd because everyday I'm remembering my dreams.  And in my dreams its been odd there had been at least one person per dream and I tell ya what in my dream I and touch/feel/smell any and everything you could imagine!  Ya gotta love it!

 

it just looks so nice and cozy in this pic I could crawl right in and pass out! The bed is very inviting!

Well I'm actually a copule days late for Jezzabell birthday but ya know what they say better late than never!  And Its only by 2 days so it isn't that bad! And while I'm at it I need to wish Aunt Stick and Crystal a happy birthday also!  Can ya believe they all have the same birthday!?!?!  Yea I couldn't believe it either!  Boy I've been sick and I tell ya what it has just total knocked me out.  Has drained me of all my energy and everything.  I can't fin the motovation to do anything.  I was put in total shock tonight I got a drunken phone call from my weener...sheana.  I just about had a heart attack!  Had to call her back just to make sure I wasn't dreamin!  I need to make it up north to go check out her new house.  I got a kick out of Jake tonight I was talkin to weener and he was in the the background yellin put her on speaker phone I wanna yell at her!  He didn't yell at me just told me very politely that I need to get my ass up there!  I wanna and will soon very soon hopefully!  Me and Lacey just gotta sit down and set aside some time to go up there.  Plus I have some god children up there that I haven't seen in some time!  I've missed birthday (last year birthdays lol) and christmas and everything else along the way! I did promise tonight that I was gonna go up and I'm a person of my word so I'll be going up there soon.

I got my new cd the other day!!!! I think I'm in love! hehehe I got the lenny kravitz it is time for a love revolution!  I love it!  So you'll guys will prolly see at least one if not more songs of his posted here in the next couple of days.  Just givin ya guys warnin so you can't say that I didn't warn ya!

 

The double L's in true color!

Isn't it just a wonderful day today??? Acutally for everything that went wrong for me it was pretty good day!  Odd.....I know.  I got my car stuck in the driveway this mornin...fun fun. Got it out this afternoon went to town came home and got it stuck AGAIN! Shoveled the driveway for right around an hour....sucked ass! It was that heavey wet slush....made my back feel really really good here! But then I got to hide out in my room for a lil while.  AAAWWWWWWWWW you don't even know how good that felt! I felt as if I was in my own little world it was GREAT!!  I think it was that time there that made my day as good as what it was!  Sometimes its good to have "ME" time.  Even thou I used to get picked on all the time about my "ME" time.  I think it does a person good from time to time.   I know that it does me good.  Boy I was talkin to Jezzabell tongiht and she was talking about a drink and she made me think and I couldn't help remember that we have stuff to make strawberry daquirs hhhmmmmmmmmm I want one so bad!  I can taste it!  I might just have to have one.........who knows maybe two....threee....four.....hhhmmm you get the point!  This winter needs to get over I'm ready for spring to start up and melt away all this snow!  Now don't get me wrong I like winter I enjoy the snow and everything but dang this year its just something else everyday its doing something we keep getting more and more snow it just seems like it will not stop!  But sooner or later it will have to so thats all that matters. Until then I'll be dreams of white sand....blue water....palm trees (heck just to see a nice green tree with leaves would be nice)...drinks with lil umbrella's.....and last but not least the hot cabana boys!! hehehe

Well Coobie went home today she has been down since Wed.  it was great having her down and being able to spend some time with her.  Aunt stick and Richard came to our house on friday.  And we even had a surprise and Mike and Laura came up and we got to see them!!  So all in all the week/weekend was great we got to see friends and family from out of town and have a good time.  Even thou I think my liver about lost 20 years! hehe But it was fun and I wouldn't change none of it for the world!

 

 

 

I had to put that up I came across it in photobucket and about lost it!!  I love that you guys better watch it is gonna pop up again sometime.  But isn't it so true?!?!?! It kinda gets that eveil innner laugh goin!  I know that I like it hehehe and that I get a pretty good kick out of it!

 

HHmmmm I don't know what it is but I have that evil naughty bone just a beggin to be itched!  I don't know what has got into me but I tell ya what it might just get me into some trouble! hehe And I tell ya what I'm might just be looking forward to it!  Is that sad?!?!  HECK NO!! There it goes talkin out loud for me again!  I'm just gonna have to hope that I can control it here!  I'll have to ride the storm out.  Who knows might even enjoy it!  Ok I'm done  I can't blog today I'm just runnin my mouth to much and my mind isn't in a very good spot!

Love-

1.	a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.	a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

These were just the top two deff. of love.  You might be thinking why I looked up the word love.  Ya know what I don't even know why I did! hehe I was thinking about love I think about love all the time whether its love for a family member or friend or my love for the color yellow!  I like to try to keep myself around love. Love is something that makes you feel good.  When I feel love I know that I must be on the path going in the right direction! What is competely weird and I don't even how it fits into this blog but it has been something on my mind all night.  One thing that I really do love is just being alone for a little while.  Why I find this weird is the top two deffinitions of love deal with loveing other people.  What about yourself???  Normally I don't like being by myself but I do get the urge when all I wanna do is hang out in my room alone and do whatever I want all day.  Is it wrong to love that??  I can't help to wonder if it isn't wrong then why do I feel so bad when I do it?? Why do I let the hollars from up the stairs get to me and go up there?? WEIRD I know but thats me.  Speakin of alone time I can't wait tomorrow Im wanting to have alone time.  I swear for the last couple hours all I have been thinking about is  being able to lock myself in my room first thing in the morning turn on some good music videos and jam out and chain smoke cigs like nothing else!  There is nothing better to do than that there! I just find it relaxin my mind doesn't have to thing about nothing...actually it when i do most of my thinking!  But its a relaxed thinkin! Then just laying around and maybe take a nap or two and just kick it for the whole day!  Pick up here and there  put some laundry away and work on stackin the paperwork away from 2007!AAWWWW how I love those days!  I'm just really hopeing for one!  But my luck the boy will not have school so they'll be home all day and right there I know that it wont happen because  yea right in my dreams!  Between them running up and down the stairs and just coming into my room or yellin for me. I can hope thou!  Maybe mom will have them do something and keep them busy! hahahha Thats funny to! Well this is getting lengthly here and it really jumps around!  Sorry for this jumpin so much but its was has been running threw my head.  And if ya kept up with it and understand it all.......will you please explain it to me then?!?!?! hehehe

Well I have a few different things so your gonna have to bear along with me today I'm gonna jump around a lil here! hehe 

The other night bean and jezzabell came over and sent the night at my house.  Bean is getting so big and talkin like something ferce!  I'm really gonna have to start to watch what I say around her.  I don't want her walking around sounding like a salior! 

Today was superbowl sunday and I can't believe I lost!  I normally always go for the underdog!  But for some odd reason I didn't this year.  I thought that it would be cool if a team went and had a perfect season.  I think here is only one other team that can say that! I do have to say it was a good game......I have to admit I only really watch the first half and half time!  Tom Petty put on a pretty good show!  That is one person I would like to go and see live!